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lovecrapht
15 June 2005 @ 07:50 pm
there are times, during the teenaged years, when the fear of what's ahead vanishes, and you realize you are on the verge of adulthood. it dawns on you that all that's keeping you from "The Real World" is the thin, frail skin of 2 years' time. in 6 years you'll be graduating from your undergraduate college, but that seems much closer than the end of senior year.

today is the last full day of classes for my sophomore year. all that's left now are half-days tomorrow and friday, and then less-than-half days on mon. and tues. (on which i have my finals). the year has fucking flown -- i can remeber so much about the past 9 months so vividly...
that's right, kids -- time for a clip show.
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i remember gym class, and having my clothes stolen out of my locker. might've helped if i had a lock, but...whatever.

i remember all the football games we played at (or, in one case, didn't play at)

i remember playing Sax outside the market with my brother, and then guitar later with Steve.

i remember New Year's Eve, and the formation of "The Swingers"

i remember the Florida trip, and how I broke up with Kate, and tripped out on Tylonol PM inside of the Magic Kingdom. I remember driving through Georgia, and stopping at the "El Cheapo" gas station at 1:34 in the morning, and was helped by a cashier named "Lisa".

i remember launching my comic, 4ntisocial, and then its subsequent death.

i remember slacking off in Lab Bio with jeanne, and then having the teacher come and slack off with us.

i remember being so sad when Lab Bio ended, and then overjoyed when jeanne transfered into my English II class.

i remember writing down all the dumb shit my Bio class said.

i remember performing my song-project for all 3 of Mrs. Paperth's english classes with Steve and Amanda.

i rmeember sitting in GreenPlanet with my ibook and the wireless, killing time, avoiding going home, and drinking really good coffee.

i remember that lame-assed "P.A.C.K.M.A.N" band (played pop covers) and how i went to see them with Steve, and how their lead kid guitarist was holding a guitar, but didnt play it.

i remember being the frenchie in 1601.

i remember getting bronchitis on the night of the drama coffeehouse.

i remember amanda in Jane Eyre.

i remember discovering i could record stuff on my laptop.

i rember confessing my feelings for amanda. and then being genuinly shocked that she had felt the same way.

i rember failing Driver's Ed. by one question (needed an 80 to get your permit, got a 78 -- 50 question test. c'est la vie, n'est-ce pas?)

i remember sleeping through the Ken Burns "Jazz" movies in Jazz Improv. I

i remember meeting John McGovern.

i rememberquitting my shit job at the Market.

i remember getting this new job, at Ahern COpy Center.

i remember having some lady throw $7.20 at me, because she didn't agree with the price of color copies.

i remember going to Baltimore harbor with my mom and borther for a night.

i remember going bat-shit crazy with my dad's credit card.

i remember all of the manifestations of my band -- the Dry, Strait Dollars; The Garden Gnome Liberation Front; and finally, the Marching Banned.

i remember all the times steve and i hung out in that park thing back behind the gazaebo, talking about the future. i remember sitting on a bench there with tori, watching the snow fall...

i remember King George being re-elected.

i remember going to the beach so early that morning, by way of exxon, with steve, to watch the sun rise.

i remember when debbie died, and how i saw her for the last time not even a week before. i remember her wake.

i remember giving the "tolerance" speech to my mom.

i remember sitting here, writing down all of thsees, in last period US history, with Mr. Price talking about Southern Reconstruction or something like that.

and, most importantly of all, i remember realizing that i have a couple of truly wonderful friends, whom i love to death, and who i will never, ever forget, nor be able to. steve, tom, amanda, and (of course) ben -- i love you all dearly.

especially amanda.

(sorry, tom).
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that was a bit long, gomen.
spencer's having an emo fit because he lied to my mom about turning on the AC and she says he can't go to the park after school anymore. he's throwing things around his room, and being a generally stuck-up angsty little bastard.

spencer, conor oberst is here to let you cry on his shoulder.

...so much for sophomore year.
-h.
 
 
Current Mood: nostalgicnostalgic
Current Music: aimee mann - "the scientist [live]"
 
 
lovecrapht
15 June 2005 @ 01:19 am

its...early. i had to stay after to make up an Algebra test, and was thusly late for work. i'm really worried about tom -- he's taking the Amanda situation better than i thought, but...he still seems really upset. i vow never, ever, ever to make fun of him for anything again.

i know this is going to sound really lame, but...i read through the archive on his Xanga, and i cried. i cried because he's so much like me. i know this is probably the strangest thing you've ever heard, but...its the truth. i was just overcome by empathy.
tom, i'm sorry for every time i've ever made fun of you or put you down. i mean it.

moving on, my eyes are blinking funny, so i think i'm going to go to bed. now. goodnight.

3 full days of school left (1 full and 4 halfs).
-h.
 
 
Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: Aimee Mann - "Guys Like Me"
 
 
lovecrapht
11 June 2005 @ 10:02 pm

well, just spent the day hanging out with Tom (amanda's ex-boyfriend, mind you, and a close personal pal). we went to Best Buy (which is sort of like Mecca for us), where i picked up NIN's "The Fragile" (to which I am currently rawking to), as well as the ADV port of "DarkWater", a japanese horror film (based on a book by Koji Suzuki, author of "Ringu") that is being remade as an american piece of shit. Oh, and a new pair of Sony wrap-around style headphones (http://www.sonystyle.com/is-bin/INTERSHOP.enfinity/eCS/Store/en/-/USD/SY_DisplayProductInformation-Start?ProductSKU=MDRG42LP&Dept=audio&CategoryName=pa_Headphones_StreetStyle)

i was supposed to take amanda out to see Episode III (i still hadn't seen it--i'm so lame, right?), but...she had a party she had to go to. so i took tom, which neither of us minded (he still hand't seen it). needless to say, it was one of the biggest pieces of shit i have ever seen. my god have mercy on Lucas' soul.

we took tom back to his house, where i came inside and he lent me a lot of films: "The Prince & Me", "10 Things I Hate About You", "Sleepy Hollow", "The Hotel New Hampshire", Lost In Translation", "Love Actually", "Sixteen Candles", and "The Breakfast Club". i'm not doing much tomorrow, so i think i'm going to watch them all, back to back, and then kill myself.

and that's all i have to say about that.
-h.

 
 
Current Mood: scaredJulia Stiles Will Eat Me...
Current Music: NIN - "The Fragile" (in its entirity)
 
 
lovecrapht
10 June 2005 @ 10:36 pm

so i'm sitting here now, in my friend's (tom) driveway, waiting for a ride. thats right.
in the driveway. on my laptop. the summer air is magnificent.

each time of year has its own air -- winter smells like winter, spring like spring, summer like summer, and fall like fall. tonight is a very good example of "summer air".

i've had an interesting series of events the past few days -- tore some tissue thing in my foot lifting an air conditioner, had a lady throw $7.20 at me (was angry about the price of color copies), and performed an original song during my 3rd-period English II class.

and i got a girlfriend.
*waves at amanda*
-h.
 
 
Current Mood: boredbored
Current Music: Charlie Parker - "Bloomdido"
 
 
lovecrapht
08 June 2005 @ 11:38 pm

01. Reply with your name and I will write something I like about you.
02. I will then tell what song/movie/icon reminds me of you.
03. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, it would be...
04. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
05. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
06. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
07. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
08. Put this in your journal.

back to the fist fu--erm...alg II

 
 
 
lovecrapht
08 June 2005 @ 11:35 pm

whine whine, bitch bitch bitch.
see? i updated.

need to un-fail alg II.
-h.
 
 
Current Mood: crazyFIST FUCK
Current Music: "Hey Joe" - Jimi Hendrix
 
 
lovecrapht
02 June 2005 @ 05:49 pm

i give up at life.
seriously.

it seems that, due to my failure to copy a bunch (40) of science-related vocabulary words and their definitions (printed in a column on a sheet of paper) into a marble-cover notebook (in my shitty, illegible handwriting), my grade in English II has dropped from a (respectible) 95 to an 87. now, bear in mind, i am one of 3 students in my Eng II class who have a working concept of the english language. hilarity ensues, no?

in other news, Trent Reznor of the musical outfit "Nine Inch Nails" announced that the band will not be playing at the MTV Music Awards. The band had planned on performing "The Hand That Feeds" (the single off of their new album, "[with_teeth]") infront of a blown-up, unmolested photograph of George W. Bush. When MTV said they wouldn't allow this (because it they didn't want to be part of a "partisan political statement"), Reznor was quoted saying, "Good. I'm glad that MTV finds the image of our president as offenive as I do."

not that you care.
i'm gonna go hate myself some more.
-h.
 
 
Current Mood: depressedemo
Current Music: Manzo - "My-pace Daiou" (Genshiken OST)
 
 
lovecrapht
29 May 2005 @ 10:09 pm

futari no HA-TO . BARANSU
kujibiki ANBARANSU
koi mo yume mo akogare mo...
tomenaide ite


wow, this has been a pretty full weekend.
ben came down on friday evening, for starters. then i had a parade yesterday (early), and another two tomorrow (earlier). ben's heading out before them, though, so we're enjoying what's left of our visit.

we went down to the beach for the fireworks about an hour ago, and then came back. it was really nice sitting on the beach, right at the water's edge, blasting "Tori no Uta" (the AIR TV op) -- something worth remembering.

i've been making him watch various anime now that he's here -- yesterday was Haibane Renmei; today was the first ep. of Bokuratsu Tenshi Dokuro-chan and all of Genshiken (which he's loving, btw :P).

also, last night we watched "American Beauty", which really was something else. just...ugh. amazing film, though. amazing.

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ben's also gotten me set up on World of Warcraft.

name: lovecrapht (damn i'm uncreative)/whatever i name my human character
realm: firetree/shattered hand

in return for the favor, i'm burning a fuckton of music, later on.
oh, i've also gotten him hooked on "A Wild Sheep Chase", by Haruki Murakami. great, great book.

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well, enough of my senseless babbeling. ben says he'll be with me at Otakon in spirit, but he doesn't have a soul, so... we'll see.
-h.
 
 
Current Mood: amusedamused
Current Music: Key + Lia - "Tori no Uta"
 
 
lovecrapht
26 May 2005 @ 08:00 pm

well, today has gone well. the jazz band went around on a tour of the elementary schools in the area, playing at 3, and breaking for lunch. it was tiring, but i got out of school for the day :P

came home, showered, and then passed out. decided not to go in to work today, just too tired -_-.
that reminds me, i should be studying at the moment >_<

i'm about half-way thru "Idoru", by William Gibson, and it's really good. if you're a sci-fi fan, or if you like Japan, pick it up. you won't regret it.
after i finish this, its back off to Haruki Murakami and his tales of instrospection. *sigh* i hate switching authors -- like, reading a book by one author, 3 by another one, and then switching back to the first one again. and then, back to the second.


ok, i'm gonna go study. will post a quiz-thing maybe tonight, no?
-h.
 
 
Current Mood: pensiveDance, Dance, Dance
Current Music: Nine Inch Nails - "Wish"
 
 
lovecrapht
24 May 2005 @ 12:41 am

well, hi.
i hate writing these first entries, because i never know what to say. i always think that i'm just carrying on, in an attempt to take up space.

so, i decided that, in order for you to get to know me, i'd fill out one of those annoying quizes and post it. now, if you know me, you know that i hate these things, but they seem to be rather venerable sources of information about one's self.
not to say that i've done any soul-searching while filling this thing out :P

here we go.
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actually, on second thought, that quiz was really fucking stupid. I'll find a better one and put it up some other time.

It's late. Ja ne.
-h out